Why You Shouldn’t Make Big Decisions in the Middle of the Night

If you know me at all – you know I have a tendency to worry. Constantly.  If I’m not worried about something, I find something to worry about.  Because of this, I have a lot of trouble sleeping at night.  I lay in bed, making lists of all the things I’m worried about.  Really, literal lists.  Then, I get up and wander around, then sit down and write down my list.  When I wake up in the morning (after finally falling asleep), I look at my list and it seems so trivial and worthless to me. Why am I worried about that? Really?
For example, last night around 12:30 I was lying there, hoping sleep would come to me, and then I decided to call my mom.   I called her, telling her basically everything that was stressing me out.

I worry about my major.  I have no idea what I want to major in.  Ask me, I’ll tell you Anthropology.  But I’m not sure if that’s really what I want.  I miss reading real books in my classes.  Anthropology has a bunch of fancy terms and big words that seem kind of unnecessary, but then again, who am I to judge the Social Sciences?
Then, I start worrying about how I need money because I need to travel the world.
Let’s take a step back for a second. I have my whole life to travel the world and here I am, losing sleep over it. I’m telling you, I’m really not coherent when I am sleep deprived.
Next, I start making rash decisions like, I’m going to stop blogging. Or, I think I’m going to delete Facebook.

Which gets me thinking, Facebook really is evil.
Reasons why Facebook is Evil (that I’m sure we’ve all probably thought of, but we hate admitting):

  • It is addicting.  Ridiculously addicting.
  • What is it anyways? A place for us all to compare our fake lives to.  
  • We hype up our lives on Facebook.  
  • We can paint whatever picture of ourselves we want. 
  • But what’s even more scary is that others can paint whatever picture of us we want.  Facebook is a place that encourages us to be judgmental of one another.
  • It makes us compare ourselves to one another. 
  • We post statuses aimed towards different people, not all 500 of our friends.  You gotta be careful about what you post.
  •  I look at people’s statuses, including my own, and see things like:

math 🙁
home. home sweet home 🙂
I live in a bipolar state
I just want to go to Europe.
just made delicious pumpkin chocolate chip muffins!

Let’s just be straight up honest here, who really cares that I made delicious pumpkin chocolate chip muffins.  And yeah, I’m struggling with math, math and I don’t really get along, but why do I feel the urge to share it with the entire world? It’s messed up.

You see, all of these thoughts and worries were going through my mind, among other things, and I couldn’t sleep.  My mom helped me calm my nerves in the middle of the night, and now I think she knows I’m not lying when I say “I can’t sleep.” 🙂 
I kept praying that I’d fall asleep, and I just started talking to my Heavenly Father about all of this stuff, that, as trivial and as simple as it all is, He cares about.  Eventually, He helped me fall asleep and I’ve pretty much had a wonderfully refreshing day.

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